Buddhist meditation (all meditation?) is recursive. As one teacher put it, the thing you are looking for is what is looking.
Or, again, as one prominent Zen teacher put it, to study Buddhism is to study the self. To study the self is to forget the self.
The end of this is a paradox that I quite like, even though it is kind of frustrating. What you see when you look is that there is nothing to see. The highest jhana…